In the past, I wrote a couple of different posts that talk to several aspects of this, but not a full accounting. People generally appreciate hearing the full story, so I thought I would give it a go. First of all, the two original posts I wrote to talk about this. I wrote them when I was much newer to spirituality, and not as confident to just say the things that sound crazy to others.

The first part of the story is here. Awakening Part 1

The full story overlaps this, but also covers a few bits that were not fully explained in the above. Things like: Jean confirmed what I heard, but the information I received was from Diana. The Romain Goddess of the hunt, the moon, wild animals, and nature.

I will not re-write everything from the above link, so please read the above before continuing.

I will start right around: “By the 10^th day, I was nearly hallucinating. I took off work, couldn’t see straight.” from Awakening Part 1.

That night I went to bed, desperately needing the sleep that I hadn’t been able to get due to the horrific head ache I had been experiencing. After finally getting to sleep, I was startled awake by my tactical flashlight (tac light) turning on next to my head. (It is a flashlight that will shine with 1,500 Lumens, and blind anyone it is pointed at.)

I sat up, I turned off the flashlight, tried to bring my heart back into my chest, and tried to calm myself down. There is a point as an adult where you stop worrying about the hidden things in the next room over as a natural part of brain development. When you grew up knowing intimately what is hidden in the next room over, those fears tend to have a harder time disappearing. I was terrified. I spent a few moments thinking to myself about how I must have had the battery cap or something not positioned right… basically anything that had logic associated with it so I could go back to bed as if I didn’t know a spirit was there and they turned it on right next to me.

Some amount of time passed. My flashlight turned back on, and I was startled awake again. I frantically turned the light off, and sat up. Once again, trying to calm my heart rate. Logic wasn’t working this time because I had fixed the … loose battery cap… excuse before I went back to bed last time. Honestly, I was sitting at the edge of my bed panicking. I started to think about trying to go to sleep again and I heard a deep voice say:

“WAKE THE F**K UP.”

I froze. It was clear enough and loud enough that I would swear a large man was standing in the room within reach of where I was sitting. I look back over my shoulder, and my wife was there, asleep ~ and definitely not a large man with a deep voice.

I grabbed my tac light (as I didn’t want her to get woken up) and I decided to head downstairs to have my panic attack on the couch. I turned on the light to the living room (Seriously, did you read the above?) and then decided to sit down on the couch to calm. Not too much after I sat down, did I see one of the most beautiful women I have ever seen walk past me like she owned the place, and sat down next to me. She slightly rotated to look at me. I looked back at here. While this might have been the most baffling part of all of the above, I was able to calm looking at her. (I am a big fan of beautiful fem bodied people/spirits.)

She looked at me and said several things. I will shorten it to encompass the pieces that are relevant.

“You are Fay. You have two spirits. One is Transcendental, and the other is Translational. One is male, and the other is female. We need you to grow and help. Grow the community, grow your connections. Become the biggest Brujo You can be.”

She kissed me gently, got up, and walked away again. I didn’t watch her walk out. I thought for a bit, and then I started thinking about what she told me. It really was like coming out of a trance. I paused to think: Who was that? And I heard her voice again laughing. I am Diana. And I instantly knew who she was. She is THE Diana. As noted above: Diana is the Romain Goddess of the hunt, the moon, wild animals, and nature.

My headache started to ease.

This is where the second part came in: Awakening Part 2

Since then, I have:

• completed my Pampamasayuq: “Tender of the Earth Spirits”
• completed my Altamasayuq: “Tender of the Mountain Spirits”
• become a torchbearer.
• helped people.
• grown.
• built community.
• continued healing.
• helped people to find hope.
• continued healing even more deeply.
• become a teacher.
• become a spiritual leader.
• continued the job of being a shaman…